Out of My Mind

Transition episode, but at first glance, it looks like one of the "slice of life" metaplot episodes. And it is, beginning the Ben/Glory plot by introducing Ben and setting up the whole Mom has a brain problem--the Big Bad for this season is introduced, but we don't know it yet.

And last season hasn't quite ended: Spike is still dealing with the chip in his head, and Riley is still dealing with the complications caused late doctor's experiments and Riley's relationship with the Initiative. The link between all the slices is physical well-being: Joyce's trip to the hospital, Riley's and Spike's surgeries. At first glance, this episode seems overtly dealing with the physical conditions of life.

But underneath it, a different theme is being explored: love. Riley, who admitted earlier that he knows Buffy doesn't love him like he wishes she does, now admits that he would rather die than lose his superpowers--Buffy is getting stronger all the time, Buffy's history suggests that if he isn't unique, he's going to be history too. Buffy argues this, insisting that she's opened up to him like no one ever before, defining love in terms of emotional connection and trust...which in the next couple episodes we'll see isn't accurate; she tells Spike things she doesn't tell Riley, implying that the emotional connection she has is not as strong with Riley as she claims. Riley knows Buffy well, better than she knows herself. She is not deep and insightful; she de-stresses by killing things. She's an action figure, not a fashion Barbie or a Buddha statue. She may not realize it, but Riley is probably right. She wants to be challenged and tested by her partner; without his augmentation, he is Clark Kent, not Superman. Even though Buffy would hate to admit it, Riley at that point becomes someone she protects, not an equal--he's right that her definition of love includes dynamic that will be missing after he becomes "normal."

Camera to Spike. He wants to become "normal," which for a vampire means able to kill. As long as he can't, Buffy's code of honor won't let her kill him. He's "safe." But he's not, really. Fighting beside Buffy, he's her equal--and the opening tag, where both Spike and Riley interrupt her as she is patrolling, comically makes the point that at the beginning, there is an equality between the three; all are capable warriors, and grudgingly accept that.

The end of the opening tag, just like the end of the closing tag, focus on the counterpoint to Riley's love for Buffy. Riley is the white milk, picket fences Iowa boyfriend. There's passion, but that's not the defining quality of Buffy/Riley. Spike, however--he's all passion. At the beginning, his hate for Buffy, his desire to make her neck his chalice--passion, but negative.

The ending, though--a dream, foreshadowing the next couple seasons--has her coming to kill him (or threatening to, again...), when they kiss as passionately as they are capable of, then Spike declares his love for her. Note, not that he wants her, or any other passion/sex/emotional word. He baldly states he loves her, in the dream, which shocks him awake. The closing image is not that ambiguous: the emotion in the dream was true, and Spike is reeling from admitting it to himself.

Logically, Riley is everything Angel couldn't be--he's the man Buffy could grow old with and have a normal life with, and there could be just enough passion to make life bearable. They have shared values, shared dreams--love, as many people would define it. BUT Spike, he's the passion. Well, so far he's the only one who recognizes it as romantic, but this is the turning point for both Riley's and Spike's relationships with Buffy, even though Buffy never quite figures that out.

OH--and the title? I think it's Spike saying that. He wants the chip out of his head, but he also knows he's out of his mind for loving Buffy. However, it could be taken other ways....still thinking about that.

Where the Wild Things Are

What does it mean to be human? This episode, a road bump on the path to the end of season 4, asks that in a sense...maybe. Adam--who isn't in this episode (or if he is, it's so brief that I've forgotten)--isn't human. He lacks passion. He can't love. And instead of having an Adam-centric episode now, there's one about passion. Simply: Buffy and Riley, because of the intense sexual energy they're conjured up, raise dormant spirits of orphans who lived in that house and were strictly punished for sexually-related behavior.

So, a party raises more Cain, and Buffy and Riley are hot-n-heavy for who knows how long, unaware that killer vines are surrounding them, that there's been an earthquake, that their friends are yelling for them. We get hints that Willow and Tara are involved, and Xander and Anya argue about sex--it's a theme.

Interestingly, Anya and Spike bond at the Bronze, having a conversation about how similar they are, both demons who can't hurt people. Spike is obviously ogling Anya, far more than previously, and Anya talks more freely and normally to him than she does usually. Their brief fling--10 minutes that changes their lives--in season 6 seems less random now; there's a backstory for it.

NOTE: season 4 must be where Joss has an itch to be an artist. As well as the ground-breaking Hush, this show features some artsy camera angles, pulling up on Riley and Buffy in bed until they are a little square of white floating in black. There was some other artsy thing, too, but I'm drawing a blank what it was.

And Giles sings, guitar in hand and earring in place, at a coffee shop. He's trying to find himself, and is still oddly misplaced. Appropriately, the following scene is in a library or something similar, researching; gotta reinforce the Giles image right after the crooning. The song he sings, Behind Blue Eyes by the Who, is symbolic too:

best-song-lyrics.com No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes No one knows what it's like To be hated To be fated To telling only lies But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free No one knows what it's like To feel these feelings Like I do And I blame you No one bites back as hard On their anger None of my pain and woe Can show through But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free When my fist clenches, crack it open Before I use it and lose my cool When I smile, tell me some bad news Before I laugh and act like a fool If I swallow anything evil Put your finger down my throat If I shiver, please give me a blanket Keep me warm, let me wear your coat No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes

Who Are You?

This is one of THOSE episodes...lots going on, setting up lots more that's going to happen. It's a continuation of the previous episode, and clarifies a couple points from that. For Willow, Faith, and Buffy, it's a character-defining (or re-defining) episode, at least introducing some shifts.

Buffy is in Faith's body, and she's being held by the Watchers, who are taking "Faith" back to England to be dealt with. The assumption is that it's possible the Council will execute "Faith." Buffy, true to her history, does not kill the Watcher-hit-squad goons when she has a chance. Clearly, Buffy is still "good," even under threat of death.

That's important, but it's more important in light of Faith's attitude about Buffy. In a somewhat funny scene, but a very uncharacteristically shot one, Faith (getting used to looking like Buffy) plays in front of a mirror, saying "Don't do that--it's wrong," in a variety of ways. She's trying to understand Buffy while mocking her. (Watching SMG be Faith as Buffy is interesting; SMG obviously worked at getting some of Dushku's body language incorporated into her version of "Buffy") The theme of "that's wrong," shows up again in the bar scene where she sexually taunts Spike, calling Buffy "joyless" and other similar things, ending by telling Spike that there's one reason she wouldn't have sex with him--it's wrong. She's more Faith than Buffy in this scene, but oddly, Spike--who usually has a finely tuned radar in all things Buffy--doesn't realize something's seriously askew. Perhaps that's because he's so tuned in to the sexual vibe she's generating, but even that should be a signal, I would think.

Finally, though--Faith understands. She could make a get away, be free of the Scoobies and the Watchers alike, but she sees the news: vampires have invaded a church. She believes Buffy is on her way to England and can't respond; it's not her problem--she's leaving on a jet plane, too.

But as she's lived in Buffy's skin, she is channeling Buffy too, and ultimately shows up to deal with the vamps and tells them, with conviction worthy of Buffy, that what they are doing is wrong. Originally, way back, Faith had a sense of mission and right and wrong, just different than Buffy's. She's found it again, and during the fight between her and Buffy (who has shown up in Faith's body to save the church as well), Faith (as Buffy) pummels her own face, yelling "You're nothing! Disgusting! Murderous bitch! You're nothing! You're disgusting!" She's not yelling at Buffy; it's not Buffy she hates. She wouldn't call Buffy "murderous." The fight is really between Faith and herself--and, symbolically--Buffy finds Faith in a church, and Faith faces herself in the church.

Faith heads to LA, where she ultimately gets in a similar fight with Angel, who she was going to let kill her. He refuses, causing a major breach between himself and Buffy--Buffy wants Faith dead, or at least not near any males she claims as hers. Angel is betraying Buffy by helping Faith...which echos the whole season 3 dysfunction where Buffy's jealousy of Angel and Faith causes all kinds of havoc.

That leads to Buffy--in a sense, this episode is about fear. Adam (who is the reason the vamps show up at church) asks what vampires are afraid of. He's trying to learn about fear. Through season 3, we know that one of Buffy's fears is Faith taking her place with her boyfriend, with Giles, and with the Scoobies. In this episode, Faith does all those things--even sleeping with Riiley, which is further than she went with Angel--which lead to Buffy freaking pretty seriously in season 3. Buffy is being forced to confront her fears and deal. The fact that everyone thought it was her makes it easier to deal, but being Buffy, she questions both Giles and Riley about how they couldn't realize it was not really Buffy. They deflect well enough--I don't remember if it comes up again or not in this season, so I'll have to watch for that issue.

Ironically--the person who knows is Tara--who hasn't met Buffy. When she meets Faith (in Buffy bod), Tara realizes right away something's off, and she tells Willow, who believes her and does a spell. (Note--last episode I thought Tara sabotaged a spell because she thought it was too powerful; I found an analysis pointing out that Tara believed she was part-demon, and the spell identified demons--that may explain undercutting the earlier spell. This one is powerful, and she does it.) And ironically, Faith is the first to know that Willow and Tara are a couple. Her comment "So Willow isn't driving stick anymore," was one of the Faith-like moments that SMG convincingly pulls off--she veers between Buffy moments and Faith subtext throughout the episode in an amazing performance.

As well as confronting fears--this episode is about sex. The spell Willow and Tara do gives some of the most sexually graphic imagery on Buffy thus far--clearly hinting at their relationship for any viewers that didn't understand what Faith meant; Faith's seduction of Riley is very blatant and un-Buffy-esque, enough so that Riley stops her and asks "What are we playing at," clearly uncomfortable with what "Buffy" was doing. When he says he loves her, Faith freaks. She's good at sex, but love--that's when Faith has a moment of facing her fear. And whether that could be a trigger for her decision to go back a save the church....hmmmm.....gotta think about it. And even though we know Spike has an interest in Buffy (Drusilla leaves him because of it), this episode is the most blatant at establishing the degree of his sexual attraction to her.

There's one component missing here--Xander. I have a theory about why he is so absent in this episode, and the one time he's in a scene with Faith, Anya is literally draped over him. With fear and sex as the major themes in this episode, there's only one direction a Xander-centered scene could go: Faith would seduce Xander, who would believe he'd finally gotten Buffy. He didn't realize "Buffy" was Faith in the scene in Giles' apartment. He's spent four seasons wanting Buffy--a dynamic that arguably never changes over the life of the show. (yes, he turns her down in the episode where he cast the love spell--he knew that would be his fault and he'd be taking advantage of her. In this case, he wouldn't know).

Faith is well aware of Xander's obsession; she's a student of male reactions, so she must know. She couldn't interact with him in any way but the most superficial without having it turn sexual, in the context of the episode. In fact, the one comment she makes to him is taunting him--Anya says they have plans for the evening, they are going to have sex. Faith says something like, "well, what are you doing after that seven minutes is done?" The ramifications to the season if Faith slept with Xander are much more disruptive than Faith sleeping with Riley; that's why Xander isn't in this episode very much.

The next episode is one I remember not liking. I'm interested now to see if there are tie-ins or foreshadowing I didn't catch the one time I've seen it before.

The I in Team

I've procrastinated about writing about this episode....not because it's so seminal or baffling, just....there's a lot going on, but it's mainly plot level. This episode is more soap opera structure, multiple storylines that only tangentially impact each other at this point, but all building towards further plot complications. Nothing is resolved in this episode; there's no satisfying "win" for the Scoobies, but the promise of more Big Bad action is clear--and this is the episode where the season metaplot really starts. All the players are in place, and they've introduced and established the Initiative, Riley, Oz's departure, Anya, Maggie, even Adam. We're pretty fair into the season for the big picture to just be emerging, but that becomes more the modus operandi in the later seasons (Willow isn't revealed as the Big Bad until the last couple episodes in season six; season 7, it seems like the Bringers, then Caleb, then....underlying Big Bad.).

The title for this episode is an onion: obvious, Buffy joins the Initiative (Note, it starts with an I, and is a Team), but it's clear that she is not good at being a Team Member--there's too much "I" in her makeup (which ties in with Giles' insistence to Kendra and the Council that Buffy can't be treated like the other slayers, that she doesn't fit the subservient pattern). A couple brief conversations with Riley where it's clear that he doesn't question, he does what "the team," usually Maggie, tell him because he's a team player just emphasizes Buffy's difference as well as setting up Riley's loss of innocence.

Riley knows he is part of the good guys, and he trusts without question that his leaders--Maggie--are doing everything for the greater good. Hence, he doesn't need to question. Just act. In Maggie and Riley's eyes, Giles is wrong for fostering the collaborative approach that he has permitted with Buffy (and the Scoobies--note that slayers are NOT team creatures, usually--flashback to Kendra's amazement about Buffy having friends and help).

So....Buffy, who has been the core of the Scooby team, has left that affilation (or so it seems based on her lack of connection emotionally and in daily ways with the others) in favor of Riley...not the first time she's chosen a man over her friends, notice. Season three had large helpings of Angel-secretiveness and pulling away, too.

But everyone is, in some manner, exploring connection and team:

• Spike starts off the episode by declaring that he's bad, and he will not come running if "teen witches' spells go wonky" or "Xander cuts a new tooth," cutting ties with the group even as Giles is there in the background trying to offer Spike status and involvement. What exactly Giles was intending is never made clear, as Spike is rude and dismissive, closing all discussion....until, of course, Spike is shot with a "tracer" and shows up at Giles door for help. A smidgen of Giles' hardass background--a hint of Ripper--comes through as he neogotiates with Spike about why Giles should help him. (The chemistry between those two characters is interesting; I wish Joss did a bit more with it...well, the whole season 7 Giles plotting to kill Spike excepted, I guess.) This episode makes it clear that although Spike refuses to fit into the Scooby team, he is part of the gang in more than a peripheral manner.
  
• Willow's turned gay--she's left the Scooby team with her own secret, and it's only later that the significance of this episode is clear. Tara, a stuttering, shy misfit, has been in most of the season, but just as "a witchy friend," filling a gap for Willow because Tara has more background in ways. But the scene where Buffy, after spending the night with Riley in one of the more graphically sexual scenes in the series, comes back to the room only to find that Willow has been out all night too. Buffy is so keyed into herself that she misses Willow's evasiveness and unease about saying where she was; Buffy isn't a Scooby at that point, isn't thinking as Willow's best friend. When Giles calls Willow for help with Spike's tracer, it's an affirmation that Giles is still assuming the Scoobies exist and function, but based on Willow and Buffy....that's shortsighted.
  
• Xander is floundering, and because he has no job, no Scooby imperative--Anya is with him constantly, and he hangs out with Giles, who is equally at loose ends. Xander's foray into selling the granola/power bars--which no one likes, and he justifies by explaining that he needs to buy pretty things for Anya (who embraces capitalism with a vengeance...so to speak!) Xander can't hold onto the sense of gang that they had; it's too clear that Willow and Buffy have other interests (and, as the poker game makes clear, Willow feels left out from the Anya/Xander vibe, too--making her relationship with Tara more likely, as well. Tara needs her friendship; Buffy and Xander don't)

BUT--pesto chango. The point of this episode may be to shake up Riley and make it clear that the Initiative (read: Maggie) has spawned the Big Bad: Adam, the cyborg-demon-human that Maggie has created and Riley has inadvertently helped with by supplying parts, never questioning what he was doing. Maggie reveals herself as evil--as not really being part of the Team, in once sense--when Riley finds that she has set up Buffy to get killed. The farm boy's world is rocked, and he's questioning everything. Buffy--who had been enthusiastic about the Initiative, barely considering the ramifications of that for the Scooby gang, is now Maggie's sworn enemy--and Maggie is dead...but by Adam. not Buffy.

One other curious thing: during a big fight scene, the graphic sex scene with Riley and Buffy is intercut. That's a technique that is unique to this episode, I think....I can think of times that things which we happening simulataneously are intercut, but the fighting and the sex couldn't be simulataneious--in fact, when Buffy asks Riley at the end of the fight, "what now," the audience knows exactly where they end up--and that conclusion of that sequence of events is when we find out that Buffy spent the night with Riley. Why they chose to juxtapose the action of the two scenes is curious. In a later season---five or six---Spike needles Buffy about the sexual thrill of battleing demons, declaring that it just primes the pump, or something similar--and Buffy vehemently denies it. The filming here may be the first exploration of that idea, which is pivotal in parts of season six....maybe.

The most important point: they have been losing the "team" experience and "team" feel this season, and the barely interlocking plots are designed to emphasize that; the end-of=-season melding that requires all their gifts to beat Adam also reaffirms that they are still a "team," not just the "I."

Now, on to the next episode, which continues the soap opera feel, if I remember right.

Something Blue

Time for a fan fav because it's just so fun--as Willow tries to magically zap the pain of Oz leaving, she causes mayhem for everyone around her...which ends up comic, no harm done. BUT...this is far more than just a detour from the season's Big Bad. In significant ways, this episode foreshadows huge shifts in the characters and the series as a whole, especially later seasons when the whole vibe is much darker.

Here's a question: who's journey is the focus of "Buffy, the Vampire Slayer?" Based on the title, it's reasonable to say that Buffy's evolution and actions are the crux of the show, but...not so fast. Because she's "the chosen," because her prime directive can't change and her course is predestined, there are some pretty clear parameters. Yes, they play with "Buffy should go away to college" and "When Buffy gets married and has kids...." but really? Those violate the universe that Buffy exists in--and yea, I know at the end of the series, we can discuss if Buffy has found a way to beat the system, pulling a Kobayashi Maru. We're several seasons away from that discussion, though, so the question stands: who is the series really tracking?

Willow. I can make a serious argument that Willow's journey and evolution are in significant ways what gives the series depth and momentum. The clearest images of the episode may be Spike and Buffy getting engaged, making out non-stop as magically blinded Giles tells them that he can hear the smacking of their lips. But why is Buffy sitting on Spike's lap? Willow felt jealous and rejected, and---oops--magic happened. Xander, Amy, Anya, Spike, Giles, Buffy--they all feel the ricochet of Willow's inability to deal with negative emotions and reliance on magic as a mystical band aid.

D'Hoffern, the boss of vengence demons, tries to recruit Willow--that's not a wake up call to Willow that she has issues dealing with negative emotion, but it foreshadows to the audience that Willow's issues are not solved by the handing out of fresh chocolate chip cookies, which she's sweetly and humbly doing as penance at the end: "Eat a cookie, ease my pain" with the wistful little-girl, how-can-you-be-mad smile. Buffy's comment about possibly wanting a forgetting spell to erase her feelings for Spike is especially pointed; Willow loses Tara, then turns completely dark, because of the sequence of events from using forgetting spells. For every Scoobie character, this episode is a template of what happens in some significant ways in the next few seasons.

Giles is blind--yep, his solo in "Once More With Feeling" echos that sentiment; because he loves Buffy, he's blinded to what he needs to do to let her grow up. And, more immediately, he's not seeing clearly about his role since he left the high school.

Xander is a demon magnet--again, significant points are made about he and Anya's relationship, which is still in a fledgling stage. And although the yellow crayon is not referenced (the touching speech he gave to Willow when she went evil, ultimately saving her...and the world, of course), Xander is the one who tries to reach out to Willow in her pain, before anyone realized that she was inadvertently casting spells.

Spike and Buffy, well--they are crazy in love, planning their wedding--and arguing, not really liking each other, but still incredibly connected...sound familiar? When they do start a "relationship," Buffy doesn't like him, they argue constantly, she admits she's using him, yet the connection is strong. Pretty much a mirror image of the show, down to the intensity of the physical relationship.

And the short bit where Buffy talks to Riley about being engaged, then later explains it away? We see her with a "nice, normal guy" and get to imagine what if that would work...the idea of Buffy settling down in a suburb with a mini-van and a hunky husband is appealing, and this episode juxtaposes life as a Slayer--and a vamp boyfriend--with the "what if" image we get from Riley...so far.

The title is interesting. Obviously, the wedding is referenced: something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue. But...D'Hoffern is blue--the underlying point of the episode could be that connection between Willow and the potential she has for evil as symbolized by D'Hoffern. And blue can be shadowy, dark--this episode seems innocuous, but really, it's also shadowy and dark, simmering beneath the surface.

I like this episode. The dialogue is snappy and fun, the out-of-character actions work thanks to both strong writing and good acting, and overall, the structure is tight. But the more I think about it, the deeper it is, and even little lines have a great deal of significance in the context of the series as a whole. I suspect I'll reference this one again.

The Initiative

Season four picks up; metaplot ahoy! Although there are deeper ramifications and some interesting character development things, this episode is mainly plot. Spike is being held captive in the Initiative's lab; he escapes, but then nearly gets re-captured. Giles and Xander are more obviously feeling useless, a situation that continues through much of season four. And Willow, who is still obviously hurting over Oz leaving, has long talks with both Riley and Spike, both of whom are using Willow to get to Buffy.

Riley's All-American good guy-ness is played up. He defends Buffy's honor by punching Parker for making an insensitive comment about Buffy, and he uses the word "courting" to refer to what he wants to do to get to know Buffy. He's nervous and inarticulate when Buffy's around, then G.I Joe when we discover he's part of the para-military group Buffy is curious about. His intentions are honorable, and he's sweet. His conversation with Willow makes it clear that he may be a better match for the brainy Willow--they seem to connect well--but after a long monologue about how they'll fall in love but end up with someone leaving (a commentary not just on her relationship with Oz, but also foreshadowing Buffy and Riley's end)--Willow accepts that Riley is going to "court" Buffy, and offers the baffling info that she likes cheese (a curiously reoccuring joke--or symbolic theme, but what of...still considering!)

The parallel of Spike going to Willow to find Buffy is interesting. Spike and Riley have antipathy towards each other, but before Riley leaves (next season? Not sure), they have a talk that makes it apparent that they are very jealous of each other. The parallel conversations with Willow is the beginning of their parallel relationships with Buffy. Riley, sweet and romantic, the "perfect" boyfriend; Spike, all emotion and passion, the despised partner. Watching for parallel moments will be interesting.

Note that Marster and Hannigan (Spike and Willow) do a subtle job of going from terror to parody as Spike finds he's unable to perform as a vampire, not realizing that the Initiative has put the chip in his head that renders him unable to attack humans. The moments like that scene remind me that it's not just Whedon's writing; the actors excel in subtle ways, making even the most ludicrous situations ring emotionally true.

Harsh Light of Day

Vamp Time! From the first scene, where Buffy is watching Parker in a mirror at the Bronze to the end scene when Buffy decides to send the Gem of Amarra to Angel (without speaking his name, of course), the episode is about vampires.

Watching Angel in a mirror was never an option; several episodes play with the fact that he could sneak up on her when she was looking in a mirror. He's gone, though, and Parker is here. The subplot of Buffy sleeping with, then getting dumped by Parker is woven throughout the vamp line of Spike and whiny new girlfriend Harmony looking for the gem. (Note: it's a Holy grail image for vamps, a point Giles makes)

Buffy apparently is over Angel, and the multiple ironies of her giving the gem to Angel is not even alluded to: first, Angel leaves, refusing to commit, then she gives him a ring--a symbol of commitment; also, his major reason for leaving was that he couldn't give Buffy a normal life, going outside during the day, moving around at will, but with the gem, he could do all that. He wouldn't age, of course, while Buffy would--but they could have had a long "normal" life (especially considering a slayer's usual life span). She gives him all that while still smarting from the slight wounds Parker inflicted. In fact, Oz delivers the ring so we don't even get the satisfaction of a Buffy/Angel reunion (although that does happen in a few episodes, I think). As Buffy begins other relationships, reinforcing that they are all 2nd to Angel is a reoccurring theme; the fact that her brief Parker relationship takes place at the same time she's earning a prize that could change Angel's life is not an accident--sure, she can play with boytoys, but Angel is still there in the background. There's no doubt that she'd leave Riley for Angel, and the Spike/Angel argument is one that is still being fought in fanfic!

This is a sexisode, with Xander going into full goof mode as Anya strips and announces that she thinks that having sex with him will cure her of her crush. (Note the parallel: that does cure Parker of his crush, but cements it for Anya) Amid double takes and comic reactions, the "romance" of Anya and Xander is underway, seemingly out of the blue. When Buffy accuses him in season 5 (i think) of being with Anya because it's convenient and she's willing, it seems possible that she's right until Xander makes his big speech to Anya to clarify. But that's a season (or so) away, and for now, Anya is comic relief--and she takes the role left by Cordelia's absense: truthteller, blurting out what shouldn't be said. Her reason for doing so is different, but often the purpose is the same--to call the character's (and audience's) attention to something we're too polite, or scared, or oblivious to notice.

And Spike--he's back. Mean, focused, and mesmerizing. Could Spike kill Buffy? Could Buffy dust Spike? Would Whedon let either of them win? That seems to be the question he tapdances around for the next few seasons...in this episode, Buffy wins the round and gets the ring, but it's close.

Now to more fun--the Halloween episode is next, and this is Halloween night. Guess what ghouls and ghosts will be scaring me!

Enemies

Faith and Buffy take center stage again. The title of the episode seems self-explanatory: Faith's choices make her Buffy's enemy. Sex abounds in this episode, which opens with Buffy and Angel leaving a movie that was apparently far more "adult" than they suspected. They are lovey-dovey until Faith shows up, gently mocks them, and takes Buffy to patrol. In a sense, that's the template for the whole episode: Faith makes them look at their relationship as she inserts herself into the equation.

There's a point, of course. The Mayor and she are trying to call forth Angelus. She tries to seduce Angel, believing that he'd lose his soul that way (if you've watched Angel, you know that's a vain hope; sex alone doesn't give him the moment of happiness to break the curse or Darla would have had to deal with Angelus.) When Angel won't even kiss her, she resorts to a spell. Double-cross ensues, and Angel plays Angelus as he pumps her for info.

Buffy is jealous. She can paint it as righteous anger, because Faith is bad, Faith is everything Buffy can't be--doesn't want to be--and maybe wishes she could be. Angel was bad, very bad--he liked living on the edge; Buffy takes risks, but refuses to admit she gets a charge out of it. That would be bad, enjoying the kill, enjoying the chase. And that's without even adding the layer of wondering if Angel really likes Faith, really would enjoy it if Buffy would cut loose a bit more.

This tangled relationship doesn't end with this season, either--it's just about the only carryover plot into Angel. Angel saves Faith; Faith saves Angel. In fact, even late in the Angel show, Buffy and Angel are at odds over his relationship with Faith.

Talking about her name is obvious, and I don't currently have anything beyond the obvious to say. Commenting on neatly the names "Faith" and "Angel" fit together is equally obvious, so i won't go there, either--yet.

So are Faith and Buffy the enemies? So it seems--but the animosity is tangled, and Buffy insists that in different circumstances, she could have been Faith. Willow disagrees, claiming that some people are just born good, and experience won't change that. Interesting to contemplate that in light of season 6 and the developement of Dark Willow...

I think there well be more to say here, but I don't know what yet....I may be editing this one.

Bad Girls

...And the season heats up. Faith and Buffy's problematic relationship takes a turn. Inexplicably, they are best buds, slaying and talking about the personal lives (translation: sex). Faith' bad girl persona is finally articulated as a life-philosophy, pretty Ayn Rand-esque, essentially, "we are better than other people, therefore, we're not bound by the same rules and expectations other people are held to." Buffy, of course, takes a nearly opposite view, feeling the weight of all the responsibility and none of the fun of slaying. Faith emphasizes the physicality of life as a slayer--all the energy and power that needs an outlet, and for the first time (I think), the theme of slaying as sexual foreplay is broached. Later, Spike--another "bad" character--will again force Buffy to admit that is true.

Together, Faith and Buffy ransack and break in, notably stealing the knife that later, Buffy will stab Faith with. Buffy seems to having fun as she tries out life as a bad girl, until completely by accident, Faith kills a human.

Considering all the bad things that have happened in the series, it might be possible that an accidental killing would be dealt with pro forma. Had Buffy been the one who did it, if she'd been alone--there's almost no doubt that she would have immediately told Giles and council protocol would have been followed, with Buffy exonerated and, althought feeling guilty, accepting of what happened. But Faith isn't Buffy, and crisis of faith and trust ensues.

This is Wesley's first episode. Against the backdrop of a true moral crisis calling for wisdom and leadership, the bumbling watcher flails around trying to inforce his authority.

The fact is, I need to think about this one more, and rewatch it later. The metaplot for this season is heating up, and I think this episode and the next are ones that bear re-watching.

Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered

Another Xander-centric episode. It seems like comic relief and a break from the evil that is Angel, but there's some character building that is worth noting. Xander gets Cordy a silver heart necklace, and it must be nice--Buffy likes it, and Cordy's first reaction is very appreciative. In the scene where Xander gives her his heart (yea, go with the schmaltzy symbolism), he makes a speech about how he sees something in her, and in their relationship, that isn't apparent at first look. Her reaction, though, is to break up with him. She's losing too much social status over him, and they don't make sense.

So....Xander has Amy do a love potion to make Cordy fall in love, not forever, though. He wants to make her go through the heartache and social stigma that he's experiencing. Like most spells at this point in the show, it goes awry. Every female except Cordy--including Jenny and Joyce and the lunch lady--are desperate for Xander's attention.

At the end of this spell, Buffy (and presumably all the girls) know what they did while enchanted. Buffy talks to Xander about how she tried to get him to undress her, and gives him high marks for resisting. While she was under the spell, he makes a whole speech about how he would if she had any clue how much it would mean to him, but since she doesn't, he doesn't want to. It's an echo of Oz's speech about not kissing Willow until she is kissing him back--seems like a trend. A man doesn't take what's offered until it matters emotionally as well as physically? Not sure how I'd word it yet, but there's a definite trend.

This is the first time we see Amy as a witch, and we're immediately hit with Amy's penchant for rat spells. Gee, wonder if that's going to show up again! And we hear more examples of Angel's torturous side, but it turns comic in this case; instead of getting Xander to hurt/kill/vamp, Dru saves Xander till the angry crowd of females saves Xander from Dru.

Here's the point worth noting: As angry as Giles was with Xander for messing with the forces of darkness--calling him "selfish" and "a fool"--Xander faces no consequences. It's a slightly comic break from the meta-plot, not a tragic building up towards Angel's evil climax. That's true of "Once More With Feeling," when Xander messes with magic, that time causing at least one death, yet he's teflon. Curious. Willow and Buffy don't get that much of a get out of jail free card. Neither do Angel, Spike and Faith when they mess up. Is it possible that because the writers (Joss especially) identifies strongly with Xander, he slids through? Maybe....

Bad Egg

I think I figured it out. These two episodes, Ted and Bad Eggs, seem like weird, weak interruptions. The front bookend is Big--Spike, Dru, Kendra, angst, fire--and it's bookended by Big Bad--Angel turning evil. These two episodes are ok, probably, but...why bother?

The lesson in Ted could be summed up as breaking rules has consequences.

The lesson of Bad Egg follows that: Someone has to be responsible.

Bad Egg begins and ends with Joyce harassing Buffy about being responsible. In between, Buffy has saved Joyce's life--the lives of most of Sunnydale High, in fact--but Joyce doesn't realize that. So she's harping on Buffy about being responsible, grounding her to her bedroom in hopes of making the point.

Buffy has proven that she's responsible, but not in a way Joyce recognizes. And soon, Buffy will again be responsible, but in a different sense of the word.

Other things: Cordy and Xander can't keep their hands off each other, but want no talking, no lights because they can't stand each other. What could possibly go wrong here?

Buffy and Angel discuss the future; Buffy admits she doesn't see one, but what she does see is Angel. That's as far as she can see--and he says that's true of him, too. This is the schmaltziest they've been, I think--again, set against the backdrop of the egg experiment and the teacher intoning "Sex leads to responsibility." Gee, what's going to happen next?

The outlaw subplot? It's cute, and it may just be another use of "bad eggs." They were bad before being vamped, so maybe it's a pun. And it does inadvertently give Buffy backup when she's fighting the Mama Bezoar. (Again, note that Xander is the only one unaffected, the only one there for Buffy; Giles, Willow and Cordy are all possessed by hatchlings. Xander, who took the shortcut of hard boiling his egg--breaking the rules, note--is safe.)

Again, we get an image of Buffy climbing up out of ground. The first was during the dream episode, wasn't it? Won't be the last, and this time it's not very symbolic, just plot-driven.

Ok....that's all for this one. My theory is that these two episodes are needed for pacing, to slow down the metaplot, but also to set the stage, priming the viewer to be considering the issues that explode in Surprise/Innocence. Maybe.

Episode Six: The Pack

Wow, was this one a surprise. I'd only seen it once before, and I didn't like it then. It's Xander-centric, but he's mean and rude and I thought it interrupted the flow of the season. I was considering skimming the scenes, whipping out a paragraph, then going to the next episode, "Angel," which is where I'd been waiting to get--it's where the love story picks up, and Angel's so... Anyway, I turned on The Pack and--taken in the context of the series, it's the most interesting episode yet.

First, what's BtVS really about? Girl Power? Sure. The existence of evil, and the fact that good people have to fight the good fight? Ok. That everybody needs people, who need people, are the luckiest...you know? Of course. That High school and life in general can be hellish, with metaphorical monsters stalking you? Umm...yeah. That redemption is difficult, but essential? Definitely. AND, that everyone has a dark side, that we are yin/yang, and need to seek balance, not letting the darkness take us? YES--and that's introduced in this episode.

This is the first episode with a dark tinge, foreshadowing the tone that is more prevalent in later seasons. While on a school field trip, Xander has been possessed by the spirit of a hyena and is now running with the pack of Sunnydale bullies--he quickly becomes the Alpha, of course. Whedon's trademark quick wit and fast lines abound, but not in every scene, and Giles' dry wit is more on display in this episode than previously.

There's one specific aspect of the show that strikes me: Xander turns predatory, mean, aggressive--and at the end, the girls explicitly allow him to take no responsibility for his actions because they know he was under the influence of the evil hyena and--importantly--they believe he has no memory of what happened. In their minds, none of it was Xander's fault, so they don't even tell him what he did, much less discuss the dynamics underlying Xander's actions. However, Giles outs him to the audience: Xander is well aware of what he did; amnesia isn't part of the animal spirit possession package. And Giles literally pats him on the shoulder, blessing Xander's sins of omission.

So what did Xander do? The less damning actions were against Willow. First, to the amusement of his Pack, he says that because he's going to drop geometry, he'll "never have to look at her pasty face again." He's well aware that she's got a crush on him, as proven by dialogue with Buffy later in the episode, and Willow has been his best friend since before kindergarten, as every Buffy fan knows. But hurting her in public, then later (after Buffy has caged him) wheedling and appealing to her as his best friend, claiming they were happy before Buffy : "Weren't things much simpler when it was just me and you," he asks, knowing how much Willow wants the "me & you" aspect of their relationship to blossom. At the end, although he doesn't apologize to Willow or acknowledge what he said hurt her, he saves her from the crazed zookeeper the second he is rid of the hyena-spirit, and he later hugs her as he says, "nobody messes with my Willow." For a love-struck 16 year old girl, that qualifies as affirmation, I'm sure.

But that wasn't all Xander did. In a very intense, fairly lengthy scene, Xander tries to rape Buffy. He is aggressive and mean, claiming that "We both know what you really want. You want danger, don't you? You like your men dangerous...dangerous and mean, right? Like Angel, your mystery guy. Well guess who just got mean." The transformation from goofy, harmless Xander to threatening, predatory Alpha is complete--and surprising, especially given Nicholas Bredon's scant resume at the time he started playing Xander. Later in the scene, he slams Buffy into a vending machine, saying "C'mon, Slayer, I like it when you're scared. The more I scare you, the better you smell." Then--instead of forcing a kiss--he goes for her neck, vamp-style.

Fast forward to season six and seven. Xander is overtly rude to Spike, especially after Spike attempts to rape Buffy. Xander repeatedly ridicules Spike's feelings, and rarely relates to Spike without that subtext. Is it because Xander knows that he is Spike? That when the guise of humanity was stripped away, he did exactly what Spike did--only with less justification? Spike and Buffy had been aggressively sexual; Spike's attempted rape didn't look that much different than the beginning of some of their consensual activities. And once Buffy kicked Spike away, he realized what he'd tried to do and was immediately upset.

Xander, however, gets kicked away and comes back for more--and that's without ever having any encouragement from Buffy that would imply interest. (Interestingly, I didn't time it, but I'm sure that the Xander attempted rape scene is significantly longer than the one with Spike) Without a soul, Xander is less human than Spike before he earns back his soul. Popular theory is that Xander's dislike of Buffy's boyfriends (except possibly Riley) is that he's jealous that Buffy doesn't ever respond to him romantically. And in the first season or two, that's an ongoing subtext. Later, though, I'm not as sure. It may be there somewhat, and Anya implies it a time or two, but as Xander matures, I think there's a chance he's more aware of the yin/yang within himself and how easily he crossed it. His evolution into the person who sees others, as is made explicit in season seven, comes because he has seen himself.

But in this episode, he's teflon. Any possible guilt slides off him, and the girls see only Xander's goofy, friendly demeanor at the end. After his conversation with Giles, though, he walks away with his head hanging. He knows what he did, and presumably is at least embarrassed, maybe appalled--and the girls don't even really have a clue about what's going on inside of Xander. Throughout the series, neither of them is gifted with emotional insight; in another gender twist, Xander evolves into the emotional savant of the Scoobies (another trait he shares with Spike, who without fail has more insight into people--especially Buffy--than they have themselves. Spike even echos Xander's speech about danger, claiming that Buffy "likes a little monster in her men.")

It's worth noting that because Xander never acknowledges what he did, he can't seek forgiveness or redemption; in contrast, although Spike doesn't exactly apologize for attempting to rape Buffy (saying that it's beyond simple words, or something like that), they do talk about it and is forgiven, even redeemed. Perhaps it is logical that Xander, young and inexperienced, doesn't find the way to broach the subject with Buffy. It's hard to imagine the more mature Xander of season six or seven not seeking resolution after letting his id loose. But still, it's possible that Xander's reactions to Spike says as much about Xander's own baggage as it does about Spike.

So Xander and Spike in a yin/yang do-si-do? Before this episode, I wouldn't have seen them as the negative image of each other, but now I'm thinking. Could be.

Three other quick points:

1. This is the first mention of "soul" in the series. Giles mentions it in connection with animal possession, saying "Humanity, the soul, is a perversion, a dilution of spirit The animal state is holy (to the Maori, who worship animal spirits)." The concept of soul is so crucial later in the series--and I suspect in the next episode about Angel, but I don't remember!
2. Buffy pulls a Simba at the end; the crazed zookeeper is killed by his hyena when he flies into the cage, meaning Buffy doesn't kill a human. In "The Lion King," Simba indirectly caused Scar (his uncle and King) to die by letting him fall to the hyena pack--so both Simba and Buffy are innocent.
3. Again, Xander is key in an early story. Whedon claims that he was Xander in high school, and it seems evident that in early episodes, they know the character better than they seem to know the other characters. At this point, Willow is still the brainy computer nerd who finds information and needs saved--little sense of her as a character.
   

Now, to watch "Angel!"

Epsiode 4: Teacher's Pet

Here's the truth: I've got several different directions I'd like to go with this, but I've got a cold and I'm grouchy and achy and I just want to watch Buffy, but until I write this one, I don't want to watch a different episode--it would cloud my memory. So pretend I'm far more nuanced, detailed and insightful than I'm really going to be.

This episode is one I had only seen once before. It's about a giant bug-lady trying to mate with Xander. I'm not into bugs. This is a stand-alone episode, one outside of the mega-plot for the season, which can be a find thing...but it just isn't an episode I love.

With that said, though, I love the opening. Xander fantasizing about rescuing a scared Buffy from a vamp in the Bronze, then jumping on stage to finish his set with the band, where he's the lead singer/guitarist. vintage boy-fantasy, I presume--and he's hot. the normal Xander geeky-gawky vibe is gone, and he's got moves. Serious moves--like Xander doesn't have in the whole series. (Side note: When BtVS began, he was 26, six years older than Sarah Michelle Gellar in real life, and 10 years older than the character he played. This scene is one of the few times his real age shows.) Interestingly, in the fantasy he bears a striking resemblance to Angel, who he hasn't seen yet, and he comments later in the show on how attractive Angel is.

If and when I write about a serious article about manhood and/or sex, this is a show I'll analyze in more detail, but today's topic is Willow. This is the first episode with serious reseach mojo happening. Throughout the episode, the gang is back at the library for more research, and this cements Willow's chops as a computer hacker. She's in the background constantly, and she's even been in danger in an eariler episode, but so far, she is not much more than a plot device. She gets to break important news, she gets to react to Buffy and Xander and Cordelia (who's not in this episode), but she hasn't really shone yet--she's the quirky nerd girl. In the last episode, we find out that she plays around with witchcraft, but treats it like a science experiment with no consideration for philosophical or ethical implications--a trait that continues until season 7. She becomes the cautionary tale of science/ability outstripping wisdom, but so far, she's just a handy, sweet, quirky friend for Buffy.

That's a formula we see throughout pop culture, the girl BFF who isn't as cute, as flirty, as desirable as the ingenue, but is a stalwart friend and invaluable resource. (We can call it the "Gentleman Prefer Blondes" formula--that play is an excellent example of the dynamic) Of course Willow is attractive, but lacking confidence and still dressing somewhat dumpy, not quirky/fun (although I think that begins very soon).

But we're still only four episodes into it; the characters are barely introduced. They all evolve from here---and I've barely mentioned Giles, who I adore! Soon, I'm sure.

Episode Three: Witch

What does it mean to be a man? BtVS is usually cited as an exploration into girl power, and in interviews Whedon speaks eloquently about women's studies and his mission as a male feminist--but the flip side of that is exploring what it means to be a man in a post-patriarchal paradigm. That is never answered explicitly in BtVS--in fact, it's not even alluded to as a question--but hints of the issue pop up like prairie dogs every so often, quickly scanning the situation, then retreating. The third episode of the series, which completely leaves the whole "Master Ascending" metaplot, is overtly about girls and their mothers, but the "what does it mean to be a man" issue is raised in several times.

Does Xander accept being emasculated to be one of Buffy's "slayerettes?" Willow uses that term in this epsiode as she and Xander affirm that they are choosing to be by Buffy's side, choosing to be in danger and fight for right. Both X and Willow emphatically agree that they want to be "slayerettes" for Buffy. The feminization of Buffy's title, the Slayer, is at once both bonding them into a unit and somewhat linguistically demarcating them as weaker, as the female partners. But by embracing the designation, Xander becomes one of the gang and perhaps by being inclusive, "-ettes" loses the derogatory connotations that it might otherwise imply.

A couple other snippets of conversation stand out:

• Buffy, giddy under the influence of a weakening spell, is aided by Willow and Xander, refers to Xander as her "Xander-shaped friend," and says it's as if he's not even a boy because he's so nice and isn't just trying to date her (which he'd been trying to get the nerve up to do). Although the audience knows that he is still attracted to Buffy, she becomes the unattainable dream girl, as alluded to in season 6 by Xander's financee, who knows that Xander's first allegiance is to Buffy. To be a man in Buffy's life, he chooses to not be someone who she thinks of as "a guy." Both times when Xander does get a serious love interest, the females involved are not actually friends with Xander or, significantly, with Willow and Buffy. Is part of being a man in the next wave dependant on checking your hormones at the door?
• In an especially interesting exchange, Xander says that Willow is like his best guy friend, but who understands girls. Does Xander pick up on Willow's sexual ambiguity long before Willow realizes she's gay? (and before the writers decide that, based on interviews). And does having a friend of the opposite gender require that there be no sexual tension, that the "friendness" of the relationship completely trump any awareness of other vibes? (Willow and Xander's one epically mistimed kiss in season 2 almost proves how dangerous it is to imagine a physical relationship with your "friend." Do new age men have to only notice a female's intellectual attributes if they are to be real friends?
  
• All these seemingly emasculating concerns are juxtaposed against a plot line involving cheerleaders. Buffy, Cordelia, Amy and a bevy of others bounce around in short skirts, which Xander panting on the sidelines. Xander is obviously enjoying the view, but does Whedon unwittingly divide women into "my friend" (Buffy, who Xander chooses to not actively pursue so they can be friends) and "my eye candy," girls who he'd gape at and date, but not "friends" (When we get to season 3, we can argue about whether Xander buying newly-destitute Cordelia a prom dress is about friendship, or about something else; I'll argue that's not indicative of the depth of their relationship)
• If Giles is the role model for manhood in an age of female power, note that he both guides Buffy and takes orders from her (last episode he does that). He places himself in danger for her, and insures her safety as best he can--but always conceding that she's stronger and more able. And notably, Giles' only male friend (Ethan) is a destructive force in the Buffy-verse; Giles is only safe around women, it seems.
  

I'm realizing how much I'm writing about Xander in these early posts. That's curious; I have things to say about Willow, and about the Buffy/Joyce relationship, but...it's late. I'm done for tonight.